I want to have a cry because sometimes you just need to have a cry. I cry a lot. Sometimes for serious reasons and sometimes for very not serious reasons. I want to have a cry tonight but I don’t want to cry alone. I want to cry in the arms of someone who is squeezing me tight, rubbing my head and whispering gentle affirmations in my ear. Then when I’m done they can say, “Better?” and I will grin, nod and blow my nose loudly.
That would be nice.
I will go to work and tell my best friend that all my STI test results came back negative today and we will high five. I love that high five so much. I think it is my favourite kind of high five. It’s funny because yesterday I high fived her because she got her period and therefore wasn’t pregnant. We’re good people.
This was probably the best compliment she could have given me because I worry about not smelling nice to other people. I don’t drench myself in cologne and deodorant but I don’t find anything more off putting than someone who smells bad. I’m glad for the compliment because it was the cherry on top of a big speech she was giving to me, bigging me up and telling me that I am a catch.
I’ve been feeling a bit lonely recently - I think I’m finally starting to want a boyfriend after nearly a year of being single. I’m happy with myself, I have lots of goals I want to accomplish and things I want to do but a boyfriend wouldn’t prevent any of those things.
Sure, I would love to be on a focused career path and completely financially stable before I enter into a relationship but I don’t want that to be an excuse either. I just want to make sure I don’t forget about my own career or finances if I meet someone.
Let’s see what the summer brings. If ya’ll have any single mates feel free to pass on my details!